Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Huling hiling...

Wala na sigurong mas sasakit pa sa feeling na any day or any time sa mundo ay mawawala na ang Tatay ko. Mas lalong masakit if alam mong konti nalang ang oras niyo para mag bonding o mayakap and isa't isa. Unang buwan ng taon, na diagnose ang lolo ko with prostate cancer. 75 years old na siya at sobrang mahina na. Ngunit nakikita ko sa kanya na tina-try niya maging malakas at masigla despite of his situation. Nasasaktan akong makita siyang mapaluha or malungkot.
Isa sa mga hiling niya bago daw siya pumanaw ay ang makita ang nawawala kong Tita. Her fullname is Febie Villacasten Alamar, at ni isa sa aming pamilya ay walang kontak sa kanya. Hindi namin alam kung nasaan man siya ngayon. Walang sinuman ang makakapagsabi kung nasaan siya or ano na ang estado ng buhay niya. Madaming kuwento ang nababalita sa amin pero ni isa hindi ko mapaniwalaan. Siguro dahil napaka galing niya magtago. Siguro dahil na din sa katotohanang ayaw na niya talaga magpakita after siya itakwil ng pamilya for choosing the wrong decision (para sa pamilya ko) in her life. Sumama siya sa isang tomboy before that's why isa sa mga tito ko ay tinakwil siya at sinabihan siyang hinding hindi na siya ituturing na part of the family if ever na pipiliin niya sumama sa isang tomboy.

Mabait, masayahin at sobrang ganda ng Tita ko, sa 18 sa kanilang magkakapatid masasabi kong maganda siya at sobrang mapagmahal na tao. Hindi ko lubos maisip bakit niya mas napiling sumama sa isang kapwa niya babae. Siguro sa mga panahong yun, litong lito lang siya sa kanyang pag-iisip. Kinalaunan nalaman namin na wala na sila ng tomboy niyang sinamahan. At hanggang doon na lang ang balita namin sa kanya. Kaya hanggang ngayon, umaasa kaming lahat sa pagbabalik niya.

Past is past ika nga nila. Ang importante yung ngayon. Anumang nangyari nung nakaraan sana magsilbing aral para sa lahat. Sana nakatulong ang ilang taong pagkawala ng tita ko para maghilom ang anumang sugat ang naidulot ng past sa kanya. Sana handa pa din siya bumalik at magpakita sa aming pamilya lalo na kailangang kailangan siyang makita ng lolo ko bago pa man ito pumanaw.

Sa aking Tita Febie, sana isang araw mabasa mo to, sana makabalik ka na sa pamilya. Sabik na sabik ang lahat na makita ka at handang handa na ang lahat humingi ng pasensya at sorry sayo ang buong pamilya. Sana ganun ka din handang patawarin ang sarili mo at ang buong pamilya sa nangyari. Kasi anumang tago o iwas mo sa buong angkan, isang dugo pa din ang meron sa ating lahat. Sana bumalik ka na at magpakita lalo na kay lolo na any time or any day of this year ang magpapaalam na. Sana bumalik ka na, Tita! Sabik na sabik na kaing lahat na makita ka!

FAMILY


Last Sunday, February 15, 2015; I visited my family in Cainta, Rizal after my Father arrived from the province. It was one of the happy get-together we have in our family since we have 2 new members of the family added. Baby Kurt (4months) and Baby Beatrice (7months). Kurt is my nephew and Beatrice is my cousin. The usual family bonding we have is eating, laughing, eating, laughing, eating and laughing till our hearts out.

Monday, February 16, 2015

FOCUS

A reminder that I have to let go and let God.

A reason why I don't need to look back and have any regrets with my life.

An answer to every question whenever I procrastinate

And a hope that there will be something good coming.

I just have to keep myself focus in every thing I do. Because the Lord God Almighty is always with me ready to back me up.

FRENZ

FRENZ. This is my first blog post way back in 2006. It is so funny that when I was able to read it again, I found out how incorrect my grammar and the spelling of other words I used in this blog post from xanga.com. I also noticed how happy I am writing this blog, but most of all I noticed how I love my FRENZ so much. Until now I really do.

here is a copy paste blog post from my xanga.com account: its been a 4yrs now wen i first met my so-called friends! age 14, i was so lucky to hv and to hold them like any other friend can do.. sept. 27,2002.. a month, a date, and that year we were able to have our first memories @ jessie kim's houz in PAVIA ILOILO.. it was so long ago! and now it is almost 2006 and we'r in our college years! we surpass every trials and pains life hit us! i am so blessed coz i've finally loosn' my pride and i learn to 4gv .. i learn so many thing and i apply it with my life ryt now.. maybe if i never met them.. i wasnt able to spend my high school years with a blaast!! i am proud to have my not only so=called friends but my kumare's and kumapare's.. yes! indeed true! we are happy and proud coz we have baby renz! probably he's the very 1st reason why i 4gv and why i let go... thank u baby renz! and now.. that lil' boy is almost a yr in this world brought by our very own lorraine a.k.a tapz!! thank u 4 havn' baby renz and lettn' him live in this world of reality...maybe by now, u aint hv a clue of what i am really sayin' all about.. nothing is a big deal in this blog.. nor it never catch ur attention at all.. probably bcoz of my wrong grammar? hahahaha.. in short.. i am just proud havn' my FRENZ.. they aint perfect but they'r for real and i am sure of that!!... thank u 4 spendn' 4yrs of frndship with me guys! i will always cherish every moments we had 2gther.. and how i wish u cud turn back those time we wer happy and sad! thanks for the good and bad memories!!.. i love you all!!... Posted 10/6/2006 1:06 AM - 1 View - 0 eProps - 1 Comment 21s